06/18/2026
story time : as i lay here looking at my son .
ive been thinking about this for a few days now . june 14 marked 21 years since i was in a horrific car accident . brain hemorraghing, broken nose, broken cheek bones , fractured c-7 L1, L2, T-10 , 3 broken ribs, severed liver, broken arm, mitositis ossificans in my kneee, ulnar n radial nerve damage in my wrist. was in a coma for a minute , even flat -lined . I LITERALLY DIED 4_times!! they said i would be in a vegetable state if i survived . well here i am savved up .
but no really its funny what life throws at us . we take our hits n keep going . for some reason it wasnt my time, i still have a story to tell n a life to live . wish i could say the same for my son. i often wonder why i was so lucky n he didnt make it but thats another one of those things that dont have an answer.
I would trade places with m son any damn day. . would he keep doing what im doing ?. who knows but ido remember at one time in life i told my son to put everything on paper. whatever it is you want or want to do. put it on paper. make a plan . i know what he wanted and i recently started checking off the list , my son always told me he wanted a rubicon and i havent put it out there but a couple months back myself n my lady purchased a rubicon in his honor. well we always wanted it too. there are other things we have been working on and its only up always.
In this life i have met some real good people and i have met some that are real as****es. on the same coin. i have been real good to people n to some ive been a real as***le, were not always gonna see eye to eye with everyone we meet but you know what , thats ok. its all the life experience we need in order to find ourselves . Life is all about learning. we all go through sooo much s**t . sooo much pain and heartache , so much love , so much loss , soo many smiles, so many tears , its a rollercoaster, its up and down but we need it to find balance. nobody is alone . we all go through it . man i can say. its been a rough ride for sure but ive always said that no matter how bad weve got it , there is somebody out there whos got it worse ! and i pray for them . man do i just wish good for people.
I dont know where im going with this now . just in circles but theres alot on my mind , im all over the place. fathers day is just around the corner too . and normally every year i take my sons urn n go to shoshone falls where i let him fly. this year im not. this year ill be working at the fathers day powwow.but he will be with me. in spirit like always .
I guess im just thinking out loud . ive met alot of people in my life and i just want to say that i met each and every one of you for a reason. i want to say thank you for being a part of my journey. whether were no longer good or whatever it may be . you have all played a role in my life. im going to be 42 next month and im gonna say that im just about half way through my life . its been good . for the next chapter of my life , i have decided that im going to continue doing what i love to do.
I have met the best woman who supports me n all i do Brenda Reyes. all my craziness she right here by my side . we love to travel , we love to see the world we love to have a good time, her n her kids are just the best ! any way she is working with me full time now and we have made a big decision that will further grow the business.
in doing so i will continue to live in my childs honor and carry him with me in heart and spirit. continue to reach his goals -too.
stay tuned
sorry for the long read and sorry if its all over the place. it may not make sense for some but then again we wont always see eye to eye. hold your loved ones tight. hug a stranger. do something u normally wouldn’t. help somebody in need. make a difference . everyone needs somebody. even if its you. love yourself . know your worth. treat yourself dont beat yourself.
