17/06/2026
Disapproval from mother
Feeling pretty horrible right now.
I asked my mom over the phone if she liked the dress I bought, and at first she said, “Yeah, it’s nice.” But then after seeing the pictures, she told me she was worried about the quality of the dress, the way it fits in the bodice, and the waist.
I found myself trying to convince her that it’s better than it looks, that it’s several sizes too big right now, and that alterations will make a big difference. But honestly, the whole conversation left me feeling embarrassed and defeated.
Now I’m second guessing everything and looking back at photos of myself in other dresses I tried on. I know I should probably delete them so I don’t keep comparing and regretting.
She lives in another state, and I did tell her I would be dress shopping. I also let her know she was welcome to come down if she wanted, and I gave her a heads up that I had a timeline for when I needed to buy the dress.
Part of me feels like she’s upset that I made the decision without her approval or without her being there, but she is also the one who moved away, not me, within a year after I was widowed at 22.
I know I probably shouldn’t let it get to me this much, but I just had a little cry about it and I’m feeling really hurt and frustrated.